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I had to pick up my mom in Yucaipa today and we headed up to Oak Glen to cruise around and grab some lunch. I want to go back for a session!
I love that when you get real close to the fence for the piggies…you can’t see it at all 
I was so proud of him, I remember the day he would have been scared!
I love that even though he may not be totally up for photos today…I still have pics of us….
his scary face 
and even though grandma’s composition is kinda off…I have a pic with my little man <3
You know you are behind photos when your 4 year old is bugging you for a session! Luckily I pretty much always have an outfit on hand that has just been waiting for a session before he wears it anywhere else. I’ve been needing to do a session for a while, but it’s been hot and I’m sure you have a hard time getting your handyman husband to do any fixing around the house. Same with me, hard for me to get in my own photos. So we threw on some clothes and hit the road for a few random spots. I plan on doing a couple of more sessions when I am ready to plan a drive a bit farther
Jace is 4 now…. he has a deep somewhat raspy voice, he loves Nick Toons now, watched Diary of a Wimpy Kid 4 times last weekend, loved the Rio moved we just watched, love to say “can we go cuddle in your room and watch cartoons momma”, loves his iPod and his little speakers I just got him to plug in, was singing Lil Wayne’s how to love in the car today and got called a Woody Wood Pecker with his crazy laugh at Costco when we were playing “copy cater”. Sometimes I wonder how I can love someone so much…then he’ll have a 4 year old moment which is good so I don’t eat him alive
i love this one…it was so hard for me to get him to do a “normal” face without smiling or sucking in his lips…he looks so serious 
we went to check this out which turned out to be a water tower from the 40′s
put em up!!
when I got him dressed I was telling him how nice he looked…he said “I look like a Rock Star” 
he loves these old school balloons that Jarrett got him…
give me that face!!!
jace + momma 
So yesterday was Father’s Day and I spent the day with my love, the kids and not the computer! This is the first year that the day has meant anything to me in a long time. This is my first Father’s Day knowing my dad is no longer here. For years I guessed on where he was and if he was even still alive and after 17 years I have my answers. I can think about it daily, the lost time, the regrets, feeling bad for the fact that he had a stroke a couple of years after we last spoke and he felt it was God’s way of putting some silence in his life, that I didn’t get more time with him now. But I need to remember to be grateful for the time I did have. That we were reunited before the doctors told us that there was no hope left to be had and that I got to hear my dad tell me he loved me and missed me and that I was able to tell him the same and mean it with no grudges. Unconditional true love is so hard to have especially when you are not in contact with your family or if you are not close. It felt good to feel that for the few weeks I had with him. I am grateful for whatever closure I gained, the time I had with him, that he still thought of my daily (he had my school id’s in his wallet) and all the wonderful memories that came back from being in touch with him and the items he passed on to me that I thought I’d never have. Until recently I had one photo of my dad. Every once in a while I’ll get upset and cry, then I remember to look at this as a positive experience and smile. Things don’t always work out the way you want and you just have to push on. Common sense, but something I’ve really grasped the past couple of years.
Love you dad, I hope you have the peace you were looking for and as promised I take you with me into the future.
Headed out to the Highland Springs Resort tonight after Diana + John’s rehearsal to check out the location. I love it and I’m looking forward to this Saturday!
just a little peek of what we saw for now…
